drained.

it's funny how one moment you feel so full of life and then the next.. you feel so completely drained.. like you were never filled to begin with.. the gut wrenching feeling takes over.. and it feels like a disease killing you slowly from the inside out.. your energy drained.. your appetite trails behind; denying you the choice of eating. your complexion goes from pale to flushed depending on whether you chose to bawl your eyes out or hold it all in. you look to the skies and ask why God chose to do this to you.. there's silence. and no answer. you give up. looking for a place between time and space where you can rest there in bliss. without a care in the world..