dirty. little. secret.

so how am i to suppress these feelings? so dark, and saddening. eating me up bit by bit. everytime i get rid of it, it just comes back. a million times darker. attacking the very core of my emotions. i tried to be strong. tried get rid of all this irkyness. but nothing seems to work anymore. i've kept it a secret for so long. i wanna tell you, but i don't know how to. i just keep it buried inside. i'm getting tired. only you can make me feel better. yet you're so so far away..