drained.

it's funny how one moment you feel so full of life and then the next.. you feel so completely drained.. like you were never filled to begin with.. the gut wrenching feeling takes over.. and it feels like a disease killing you slowly from the inside out.. your energy drained.. your appetite trails behind; denying you the choice of eating. your complexion goes from pale to flushed depending on whether you chose to bawl your eyes out or hold it all in. you look to the skies and ask why God chose to do this to you.. there's silence. and no answer. you give up. looking for a place between time and space where you can rest there in bliss. without a care in the world..

some say that...

some say that their life's a bed of roses. well.. so's mine.. cept that mine's a bed of DEAD roses..

The Real Villian

It's really not that hard to realise. Cos when you look back at all the thing that's happen, you realise who's the culprit of all this problems/sorrows/heartache. It's not you or me or the she or he that you're thinking of. The real villian would ALWAYS be cirumstances. The real bitch in life.

%$#@%$^@$%@

DO I HAVE A BLOODY NEON SIGN RIGHT ON TOP OF MY HEAD THAT SAYS "PICK ME! MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE!"?! IS IT BIG ENOUGH THAT YOU CAN SEE IT ALL THE WAY FROM HEAVEN?!! I'M PRETTY DARN SURE I DON'T.. SO WHY ME ALL THE TIME HUH?!

dirty. little. secret.

so how am i to suppress these feelings? so dark, and saddening. eating me up bit by bit. everytime i get rid of it, it just comes back. a million times darker. attacking the very core of my emotions. i tried to be strong. tried get rid of all this irkyness. but nothing seems to work anymore. i've kept it a secret for so long. i wanna tell you, but i don't know how to. i just keep it buried inside. i'm getting tired. only you can make me feel better. yet you're so so far away..

Top 5 Most Hated

Helloooo Bloggieee! =D


Sorry it's been forever... I know I should've blogged sooner.. I've neglected you again.. but anyways.. I'm back now.. So let's get down to business shall we...


The world isn't made perfect. There will ALWAYS be something you hate bout it. Be it a person or an unfriendly force of nature.. Either ways.. Here's my top 5 most hated things:


1. Backstabbers
    Need I say more? I mean seriously..? These would be like the most lowlife humans ever. If you have the guts you would say what you wanna say to my face. Not behind my back. And definitely NOT to my close friends. These people are evidently just plain jealous and their idea of a genius plan is trying to undermine you.. Super dim witted..

2. Attention Seekers
    Yes we know that you know that we know bout you. You already make yourself super duper obvious. Always trying to prove yourself better. Showing off your so-called talents and always poking your head into other people's business is no way to be known. And no, trying to get every guy in the room to swarm towards you does make you look anymore popular than it makes you look cheap.

3. Conceited people
    I think Rebecca Black she who shall not be named can be put into this category. Seriously.. Singing bout the days of the week in the most monotonous, drone-like voice and releasing it with a music video..? Did you think you were gonna make people like you that way? Yea... the backseat is way better suited for you.

On a lighter note..
4. Vegetables
    So maybe I'm a bit too old for this.. But I still hate eating my veggies. Lol. Nuff said. =D

5. Maths
    I seriously don't get the point of it... If you're not gonna be doing science or maths for the future, why on earth do we need to learn bout Trigonometry, Algebry, Calculus and the sorts.. =/ seems rather pointless to me.. Don't you think? I don't think I'm gonna try and find x when buying groceries from the supermarket...

So there you have it.. My 5 most hated things for now. Lol. Love it or hate it, I'm not forcing you to read it.


Peace!
J